Hindsight

I look behind me and am startled by my shadow
Scared of the way it stalks me
It wasn't until I was in darkness that thought I had found peace
As I calmed I realized now my shadow was all around me
The darkness was my shadow!
I leapt in fear fleeing the room
There was no escape from the thing behind me
I feel as though I'm doomed to be chased my entire life
I sat in a ball shivering from fear
For hours I could feel it watching me
Paying close attention to me trying to find my weaknesses
When subtly a hand rests upon my shoulder
I look up and see you
You reach for my hand and pull me to my feet
There is no shadow beneath yours
"Brother," you say, "why do you hide?"
"There is nothing to be afraid of, I'm here by your side.
Come on, let's go out into the sun
And make this shadow be undone."

Drifting into bliss.... Drifting to you....

I woke up this morning expecting to see the person who only a moment ago had been stand right by me. Partially dazed from sleep I can only see a glimpse of you in the backs of my eyelid. It was you. Your safety, your passion, your emotion, your delight, and your unconditional love. Gone from my presence as I drift back into time. The place that has too much demand. Falling out of the place I call reality, I begin my day. Hardly remembering you as you're slowly dragged into the caves that litter my mind. Everything seems to take you away. This worlds food, this worlds sounds, this worlds sights, this worlds air. You fall from my attention and the demons that hide in my mind take you away. You don't receive the spot you deserve in my mind. Instead you are imprisoned. Held captive and punished for my mistakes. Until at the moment a spark hits me and your face returns. Your beauty, your love and your strength return and you take your spot. Next to me showing your power and aw.  Now as I drift back into reality you become my companion. I can hold your hand and run with with you. Passing the thorns, the anger, the hate, and we become once again the two who find peace and freedom within each other.

Bliss...

Until, the demons return. They rummage through the bushes, through the buildings, following our trail. All to take you away and return me to another world. One that is not my home, not my place. I won't let them take you again. I won't, I won't, I Won't, I WON'T, i won't, i wo.....

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A half seen face returns into my mind only to leave me more confused about who she is. I don't know her. I don't remember..... I don't remember....... I can't remember...... No.