Fix you...

We shared a glance today. The look in your eyes saying you wanted to be with me forever. Mine saying I couldn't dare dream of a world without you right next to me.

Yesterday we put together a puzzle, I said that we're like two puzzle pieces, we fit just right even with our rigid edges.

The day before I was singing you a song when you cried.

The other week you tripped into my arms and chuckled and gave me a kiss.

Last month you made me a cake, with whipped cream all over it and a strawberry that you'd cut in half to make the shape of a heart.

Last year you grabbed my hand as we walked through the park and never let go.

Long before that we were younger but you still had that spark in your eye and I still wanted to make you the happiest girl in the world.

A minute ago you stared into my eyes and with just a whisper said that you had never been more happy in your entire life than when you were right next to me. Then you closed your eyes and didn't wake up.

......

Day after day, I couldn't stop thinking of ways to bring you back. To fix you. To have you by my side.

Now, every night I fall asleep knowing that the world I'll dream of will have you right there by me with the most beautiful smile and with tears in your eyes, saddened by my absence. Every night I fall asleep and can't help but grab your hand as we walk passed the stars and glimpse the eternities.

"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."
Author Unknown

Hindsight

I look behind me and am startled by my shadow
Scared of the way it stalks me
It wasn't until I was in darkness that thought I had found peace
As I calmed I realized now my shadow was all around me
The darkness was my shadow!
I leapt in fear fleeing the room
There was no escape from the thing behind me
I feel as though I'm doomed to be chased my entire life
I sat in a ball shivering from fear
For hours I could feel it watching me
Paying close attention to me trying to find my weaknesses
When subtly a hand rests upon my shoulder
I look up and see you
You reach for my hand and pull me to my feet
There is no shadow beneath yours
"Brother," you say, "why do you hide?"
"There is nothing to be afraid of, I'm here by your side.
Come on, let's go out into the sun
And make this shadow be undone."

Drifting into bliss.... Drifting to you....

I woke up this morning expecting to see the person who only a moment ago had been stand right by me. Partially dazed from sleep I can only see a glimpse of you in the backs of my eyelid. It was you. Your safety, your passion, your emotion, your delight, and your unconditional love. Gone from my presence as I drift back into time. The place that has too much demand. Falling out of the place I call reality, I begin my day. Hardly remembering you as you're slowly dragged into the caves that litter my mind. Everything seems to take you away. This worlds food, this worlds sounds, this worlds sights, this worlds air. You fall from my attention and the demons that hide in my mind take you away. You don't receive the spot you deserve in my mind. Instead you are imprisoned. Held captive and punished for my mistakes. Until at the moment a spark hits me and your face returns. Your beauty, your love and your strength return and you take your spot. Next to me showing your power and aw.  Now as I drift back into reality you become my companion. I can hold your hand and run with with you. Passing the thorns, the anger, the hate, and we become once again the two who find peace and freedom within each other.

Bliss...

Until, the demons return. They rummage through the bushes, through the buildings, following our trail. All to take you away and return me to another world. One that is not my home, not my place. I won't let them take you again. I won't, I won't, I Won't, I WON'T, i won't, i wo.....

...

A half seen face returns into my mind only to leave me more confused about who she is. I don't know her. I don't remember..... I don't remember....... I can't remember...... No.

Your tears.

It seems lately when I see you, your eyes retrace the past and come back with tears
Of something that sadly, passed too quick or of a mistaken chance
Of sorrow for a misdeed or of golden moments falling away like shimmering raindrops
Of the tenuousness of a stressed-out day
          or the tenderness of the sweetest most innocent embrace
Life has passed us quickly I can't say I know what's ahead or that it will be easy
But I can say this, I'm not scared of the future as long as you'll be somewhere in it
Close enough that just your face can bring hope to a broken spirit
          or relief from the struggles and pains of doubt
I'm not scared because of this moment right here
This moment when I look into your eyes and see everything
This moment when I can hold you tight and fly.

"I'd go the whole wide world...."

All I can say about this song is that it's very hopeful!

Thank you The Proclaimers for a great rendition of this song.

Whole Wide World- The Proclaimers (Originally by Wreckless Eric)

It's always amazing to know that there is someone out there just for you. Even if they're half way across the  world, I can still go find her.